After 18 months of swinging, Ruth has a moment of recognition while watching Black Mirror. With support from friends and domestic abuse services, she secretly prepares to leave her marriage. Now, in her garden, Ruth reflects on freedom, fear and why she chose to tell her story.
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Presenter: Catrin Nye
Writers: Catrin Nye and Jamie Bartlett
Exec Producer: Kavita Puri
Series Producer: Ruth Mayer
Commissioner: Bridget Curnow
Sound Design: Ivor Manley
Title Track: David Wrench
Researchers: Emily Parsons and Liv Facey
Production Management Assistant: Daisy Carol
Production Manager: Mandy Osborne
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